- Sammy ? - Yeah ?
I want you to tell me who changed the colors on my computer screen.
I'll never tell.
[ Both Chuckling ]
[ Chuckling Continues ]
Where were you ?
Nowhere. I had dinner with my boss.
- Kind of a late dinner. ain't it ? - Yeah.
- How is Rudy ? - Fine. He's asleep.
- Did the plumber come ? - Yeah. the fucking plumber came.
Terry, just give me a break!
- What's the matter with you ? - Nothing !
I'm-- I'm just tired.
[ Bottle Top Opening, Rattling ]
Wanna smoke some pot ?
No. I don't.
Why. you got some ?
So... Bob asked me to marry him.
- Wow. What are you gonna do ? - I don't know.
If he'd asked me the same time last year. I probably would've said yes.
But I don't know. The minute he asked me.
it was like someone was trying to strangle me.
Whoa. Bad sign.
Yeah. I know.
Plus--
[ Whispering ] Terry. I fucked my boss.
- What ? - I know.
I know his wife is six months pregnant.
-Jesus Christ. Sammy ! - I know. I know.
Um--
I'm sorry I got so mad at you before. I just--
-It's cool. -I just don't want him to be scared.
I really don't think that's his problem. Sammy.
No ? What-- What do you think his problem is ?
Well. I think his problem is that he's totally sheltered.
I mean. you treat the kid like he's three. so that's how he behaves.
Uh-huh. Well. how do you think he should behave ?
Well. I don't think he should have to run and tell Mommy every time...
he does something she might not approve of. for one thing.
- Uh-huh. - I mean. I took him to play pool.
It was a little clandestine thing we did for fun.
It wasn't a big secret. I mean. who cares ?
I was actually trying to be nice to him.
But he's so freaked out that he disobeyed your orders...
that he's got to fucking squeal on me and I gotta listen to your shit.
- And I didn't fucking do anything. - Okay.
First of all. he didn't say anything. Darryl did. Okay ?
And second of all. I don't give a shit...
if you take him out to play pool.
I was mad at you because you left him at the bus stop in the rain.
But no. I don't want you telling him not to squeal...
because I don't want him put in that position.
[ Scoffs ] Well. that...
is a perfect example of what I'm talking about.
You are an idiot.
- Are you saying Darryl told you ? - Yes !
[ Phone Ringing ]
- Good morning. - [ Brian ] Yeah, good morning.
Could you shut the door, please ?
Brian. I just want to--
[ Whispering. Indistinct ]
Brian ? [ Laughs ]
That's enough.
- You're awfully quiet. - Sorry.
So have you thought at all about what I said ?
Well... sure. I've been thinking about it.
So any decisions. or-- [ Chuckles ]
Do-Do you want to think about it some more ?
I don't know. Bob.
It's not like we've been going steady for the last few months.
- Yeah. No. I know. - And we see each other twice.
and then you suddenly say you want to get married ?
- No. you're right. You're right. - I mean,
what are you talking about?
I-I don't know.
I. um--
Last year. I--
I thought that maybe you were possibly...
interested in that idea.
But I was the one who wasn't ready. you know. at that point.
so that's why I sort of thought things slowed down with us.
Don't make me feel bad for you.
I don't want you to feel bad for me.
[ Woman On TV] Yeah ? Well, where were you last night ?
[ Ringing ]
- Hello. - This is Brian.
Brian. where are you ?
I'm buying milk. Just thought I'd say hello.
Look. I know it's probably too late. but...
is there any way you can come out for a little while ?
Brian. I think you're going crazy.
I know I am. Can you meet me ?
Um...
okay.
[ TVContinues, Indistinct ]
Um, I have to go out for a little while. Do you want anything ?
[ Scoffs ] Like what ?
- I don't know. - Where are you going ?
- Yeah. where are you going ? - I just have to go out for a while.
- Where ? - Yeah. where ?
I'm going to Mabel's house.
Why ?
You know what. Rudy ? It's personal.
It's-- It's a personal matter...
that has to do with Mabel, and I just have to go...
see her for a little while.
Listen.
Listen. I'm sorry I said you squealed on me.
I was totally out of line. and I really owe you an apology.
- Did you hear me ? - I don't care.
[ Woman ] I'd like to introduce myself.
# I'm the other woman #
# The other woman #
# In your husband's life #
# Now everybody's blaming me #
# I'm the other woman #
# But who are they to judge #
# Who's wrong or right #
# Their whispers might be different ##
[ Inhales Sharply ] Oh !
[ Chuckling ]
Oh-ho. Oh.
Oh.
[ Clock Chiming ]
What's on your mind. Sammy ?
Well. a lot.
But principally. I was just wondering if-if you had an opinion.
I-If you know someone in your family...
or even just someone who you really care about...
and they just can't quite get ahold of themselves.
Ah ! Guess who these are for ?
- Me ! - That's right. my little friend.
Hello. We're going fishing.
I got a new rod and reel. five lures.
a hat. a knife and a fish scaler.
- That's great, sweetie. - [ Doorbell Rings ]
I'll get it.
Well. I'm not really sure why you're here. Ron.
Um. I know I haven't exactly been the model citizen since I got here.
But considering how things have been going for me lately.
I thought I was doing pretty well.
I also find it kind of discouraging that you seem to think that...
I'm in need of some sort of spiritual guidance or what have you.
So much so. that you're willing to disregard the fact...
that I don't believe in any of this stuff at all.
- I didn't mean to discourage you. - I find it insulting.
Can I-- Can I say something here ?
Sammy asked me to come talk to you because it's her opinion...
that you're not gonna find what you're looking for...
the way you're looking for it.
- And how would she know ? - I'm really not here...
to try to get you to do anything or believe in anything.
And I'll tell you the same thing I told her,
which is that as far as I'm concerned, the only way...
she can help you is by her example. by trying to be a model for you....
in the way she lives her life.
And that doesn't mean that she's supposed to be a saint either.
if that's what you're smiling about.
I didn't realize I was smiling.
You know. a lot of people come to see me with all kinds of problems--
drugs, alcohol, marital problems, sexual problems--
- Good job you have. man. - Well. I like it.
Because even in this little town, I really feel like...
what I do is very connected with the real center of people's lives.
I'm not saying I'm always Mr. Effective,
but I don't feel like my life is off to the side of what's important.
I don't feel that my happiness and comfort...
are based on closing my eyes to trouble in myself or other people.
I don't feel like a negligible little scrap...
floating around in some kind of empty void...
with no sense of connectedness to anything around me...
except by virtue of whatever little philosophies...
I can scrape together on my own.
Well-- [ Scoffs ]
Can I ask you. Terry-- Do you think your life is important ?
Um. you mean like... me personally. like my individual life ?
Yeah.
Mmm-- I'm not really sure. What do you mean ?
I mean. it's important to me. I guess.
and like. to. you know. other people who care about me.
But do you think it's important ?
[ Scoffs ] I--
Do you think it's important in the scheme of things--
not just because it's yours or because you're somebody's brother.
Because I really don't get the impression that you do.
I don't think that anybody's life has any particular importance...
besides-- whatever. you know-- like whatever we arbitrarily give it.
Which is fine. I mean. you know. we might as well.
I think my life is as important as anybody else's.
I don't know. Ron.
A lot of what you're saying has real appeal to me.
You know. the stuff they told us when we were kids.
But... I don't want to believe in something...
or not believe in it because I might feel bad.
I want to believe in it or not because I think it's true or not.
Yeah. I mean. I want to think that my life is important.
That it's connected to something important.
Is there any way for you to believe that without calling it God...
or a religion or whatever term it is that you object to ?
Yeah. I believe that.
So Sammy. what example will you be setting for us tonight ?
[ TV.: Indistinct ]
What time are we getting up to go fishing ?
We're not going fishing.
- What do you mean ? - Why not ?
I think you should go fishing with Father Ron.
I don't want to go fishing with Father Ron.
Well. I'm not going to take you.
I'll take you. sweetie.
- I realize that you're mad at me. - I'm not mad at you.
But he didn't do anything to you.
And you cannot promise a little boy--
After that religious conversation. I realized it's probably...
not so good for him to be spending so much time with someone...
who doesn't believe his life is important in the scheme of things.
- Would you please. - I'm serious.
Listen.
I am sure if you put your mind to it.
you can think of some other way of getting back at me besides this.
So would you please just give it some thought...
and take him fishing tomorrow ?
I would. Sammy. but I really don't think it's good for him.
You suck !
[ Footfalls Pounding Down Stairs ]
[ Door Slams ]
[ Ringing ]
Hello ?
[ Ringing ]
Hello ? Hello ?
Hello ?
[ Answering Machine Beeps ]
[ Bells Ringing ]
[ Chattering. Indistinct ]
- Hi. - Hi.
- You remember my wife. Nancy. - Oh. yes. Nice to see you.
Father. Nice job.
[ Whistles ]
[ No Audible Dialogue ]
Anyway. I don't know what the church's official position is...
on fornication and adultery these days.
I felt hypocritical not saying anything to you about it before.
so... what is the official position these days ?
Well. it's a sin.
- Good. I think it should be. - But we try not to focus...
on that aspect of it too much right off the bat.
- Why not ? I think you should. - Well--
Maybe it was better when you came in here...
and they screamed at you for having sex with your married boss.
They told you what a terrible thing it was. They were mean to you.
Ma-Maybe it would be better...
if you told me that I was endangering my immortal soul,
and that if-if I don't quit...
I'm gonna burn in hell.
Don't you ever think that ?
Um... no.
Well. it would be a lot better than all this...
''Why do you think you're in this situation''...
psychological bullshit you hear all the time.
Well, why do you think you're in this situation ?
W-W-With which one ?
All of'em.
I feel sorry for them.
Isn't that ridiculous ?
[ Rudy ] I've never been so bored in my whole life.
We should've been here around 7:00. 8:00 a.m.
What time is it now ?
2:30.
Was my father a good fisherman ?
Yeah. he was good at all that stuff. you know ?
He knew everything about the woods. hunting. fishing and cars.
If he wasn't such a pain in the ass. he would've been fun to be around.
- Maybe he's nicer now. - [ Chuckles ]
- I doubt it. - Well. I think he is.
How would you know ? Did you ever meet him ?
No.
You ever been curious about meeting him ?
I guess so.
He lives near here.
I thought he lived in Alaska.
No. I lived in Alaska. He lives in Auburn. as far as I know.
We could look him up in the phone book.
Wanna try it ?
All right.
But Rudy, I'm sure I don't have to tell you this,
but I'm not kidding. man. don't tell your mother.
Can I get you something ?
Or hey. do you want to go for a walk... or a drive ?
It's really nice out.
No. I'm not gonna stay long.
Bob. I don't want to get married.
Okay.
I've been thinking about it for a long time,
and if you had asked me last year.
I'm sure I would have said yes.
Oh. Thank you.
But I don't think it would've been a good idea then either.
I've been going through a really hard time lately, and I just--
I think getting engaged to you or anybody else would be probably...
the stupidest, most self-destructive thing I could possibly do.
Okay.
And I really think you need to grow up.
How about we fix my personality some other time ?
Okay.
I really hope we can still be friends.
Oh. Yes. me too.
Bob !
- Bob. - What ?
- I don't know. - I don't know. I just-- I--
Sammy. I-I love you. I--
I really--
I love you.
Oh. I love you too.
- Oh. shit ! - What ? What ?
- I got to go. I'm sorry. - Where do you have to go ?
I have to get Mabel her car.
Now ? I don't understand.
How are we leaving things ?
I don't know. Call me later.
This is incredible.
Mmm.
That is not what I mean.
# I was born on this land #
# This land is my home #
# And she rules me and keeps me #
# From worry and woe #
# Well, it took everything #
# She gave, now they're gone ##
Maybe we should call first.
Well. we're right here.
- Come on. - [ Car Door Shuts ]
- There he is. - His last name is Kolinsky ?
Yeah. Come on.
Go ahead. knock.
Out of the yard, and the Mets add another run to their lead.
It's now 7 to 2, Mets.
- Yes ? - Hi. We're looking for Rudy.
Who should I say is calling ?
- Uh. an old friend. - [ Man ] Who is it ?
- He says an old friend. - How old is he ?
- Hey ! - Hey. Rudy.
Hey.
- Hi. I'm Terry. - Hello.
Uh. this is Rudy.
You don't say.
Rudy. meet Rudy.
I'll just be in the kitchen.
Nice meeting you. Okay if we come in for a minute ?
- What the hell are you doing ? - What do you mean ?
- Would you back away from the door? -Just want to come in--
- Would you back away from the door? - All right, all right.
What are you doing here ?
-Just wanted the kid to see you. - Now he saw me.
Now you saw me. all right ? Now. do you mind ?
-Man. you really-- -I'm trying to be polite. all right?
Would you just take off? Just take off.
-I just wanna-- -Do you know what you're doing here?
Get out of here. all right ?
You know what. man ? You're still a fucking asshole.
I'm an asshole ? Get out of here.
Fuckin' asshole !
Get your fuckin' hands off him !
Get off !
Fuckin' woman ! Get the fuck--
Hey, break it up !
Listen. Officer. I just came down here to talk to the guy.
and he starts shovin' me.
-You're not the guardian ? -I don't even know if that's my kid.
- Fuckin' lying piece of shit. - [ All Arguing ]
[ Woman ] He's on our property. I don't know who this guy is.
[ Arguing Continues ]
We have a right to protect ourselves.
Listen to 'em. You can hear. they're out of their minds.
Look at how aggressive he is. He started the whole thing,
- and now I'm being arrested-- - Stop talkin'.
And what's gonna happen with him ?
- Terry. stop talkin'. - All right. man.
Any idea where we might contact his mother?
No. because he's not my goddamn kid.
- Oh. my gosh. - What's the matter?
What time is it ? Oh. my God. it's 9:30.
Hey. You know. Nancy's gonna be gone for the rest of the week.
- Well. Brian. - Yeah ?
I don't mean to be-- Couldn't we just--
I mean. could we give it a rest ?
Yeah. sure. if you want to.
I mean. I just think-- I don't know--
we've had a great little fling. you know.
So why push it ?
Is that okay ? I just--
Yeah. sure. Okay. No. you're right.
- So we're still friends ? - Mm-hmm. Sure.
All right.
[ Phone Ringing ]
[ Clicking ]
Around 2:00 this afternoon.
Yes. A '9 7 red Subaru Outback.
New York plates. AUZ 41 6.
Please.
[ Doorbell Rings ]
Thanks for coming over. I want to have a car handy. just in case.
No problem.
Yes! What-What about other towns ?
Yes.
I-I've called the Highway Patrol four times.
What am I supposed to do all night ?
[ Phone Ringing ]
Hello ?
Anyone hear from Sammy this morning ?
- I didn't. - Uh-huh. Well.
if anybody ever hears from her ever again. would you let me know ?
Yes.
- Thanks. I'll give you a call. - All right.
It's gonna be all right. We got on the phone with Rudy Sr. a bit.
and he's calmed down.
He wants to forget the whole thing.
Darryl. I really appreciate this.
[ Phone Ringing ]
- Hello. - Yeah. it's Brian.
-Brian. -What the hell happened to you lady?
[ Numbers Speed-Dialing ]
[ Ringing ]
- Hello. - You're fired !
Good !
[ Slamming Phone ]
- Rudy ? - Yeah ?
Is there anything you want to ask me...
about your father ?
- Oh. that wasn't my father. - What ?
That wasn't him. I heard him tell the cops.
No. Rudy. that was him.
I wish it wasn't. but it was.
No. it wasn't.
Yes. Rudy. It was.
Your father's name is Rudy Kolinsky.
He lives in Auburn.
[ TV.: Indistinct ]
Would you turn that off. please ?
- You don't have to say anything-- - I want you to leave.
What do you mean ?
I mean. I don't think you should live here.
I don't think you know how to behave around an eight-year-old.
and I don't know how to make you stop.
so I don't think you should live here.
I-I don't know what else to say.
- I don't know how to behave? - That's right.
I think you don't know how to behave around an eight-year-old.
Are you out of your mind ?
Just listen to me. I may not be the greatest mother in the world,
but I'm doing the best I know how. and he doesn't need you...
to rub his face in shit because you think it's good for him.
He's gonna find out the world is a horrible place...
and that people suck soon enough. and without any help from you.
Believe me.
I think... you should get your own place.
I thought maybe you could--
I-I'd be happy to help you out financially.
-What do you mean. get my own place? -I mean. I--
- You mean. here. in Scottsville ? - Yes.
Why would I do that ? Why don't I just leave. period.
Well--
If that's what you want to do. that's fine.
But that's not what I'm saying.
You're a very important person to Rudy.
And you are the most important person to me.
But I'm saying. I can't take any more of this.
- Well-- - And I thought you could sell...
your half of the house to me.
and then I could pay you back a certain amount.
whatever it is. over a period of time.
No. you know what ? I'll just go.
[ TV.: Indistinct ]
Well. th-that's not what I'm saying.
[ TV Volume Increases ]
[ Rudy ] Where are you gonna go ?
I don't know. I just want to get out of this town. And if you...
have any sense when you get old enough. you'll get out of here too.
Your mom is gonna stay in this town for the rest of her life. Know why ?
Because she thinks she has to.
She thinks there are all these things that she has to do.
But I'll tell you one thing about your mom.:
She's a bigger fuck-up than I ever was.
I mean. I know I messed up. okay ?
You think I enjoy getting thrown in jail ?
Because I wanted you to face that prick like a little man...
and show you what kind of guy he is ?
I got a little carried away. I know it.
I lost my temper a bit. which is not the end of the world. either.
Just for future reference.
And now she's gonna throw me out of my own house because--
you know. because I fucked up a little bit.
Which I totally admit.
I was. like. totally ready to admit that.
I could go with you.
Thanks. man. but I. uh--
I can't really take care of you.
[ Doorbell Rings ]
Is-- Is that for you ?
Yeah. I'm just gonna stay at Ray's till I leave.
- You don't have to do that. - But that's what I wanna do. so--
Are you gonna come back and say good-bye ?
No. I'm just gonna take off. See ya.
Well--
Look. I know you're upset about Uncle Terry leaving. and so am I.
But he is not in control of himself. and I don't want him hurting...
your feelings anymore. or mine.
You might not like it. but that's the way it's gonna be. okay ?
I don't care.
You don't care ? I don't care either.
[ Sighs ] Well. I'm sorry...
- you're having all this trouble. - Thank you.
But you made a good speech to me the other day about people...
- sticking to their commitments. - Yeah ?
Well. you made a commitment. Sammy. to this bank.
- To this job. - I know I did.
And to working things out with this new son of a bitch boss of yours.
Whatever passed between us after hours doesn't mean you can just...
walk away from that commitment.
Yeah, even if you have a legitimate family emergency.
- I'm really sorry I didn't call in. - That's why I think.
in the calm. cold light of day.
that you and I both have to think real hard about whether...
you really want to continue on here at Outpost Bankers Trust.
- You've gotta be kidding. - You're not happy.
I'm not happy. It's no good for you.
And it's sure as heck no good for the bank.
You know. you're the worst manager we've ever had.
- Come on. Sammy. - By far. the worst.
- I don't want to trade insults. - I don't want to be fired.
-I've been working here seven years. -Well--
If I were you. I'd be a little nervous firing...
an employee I just had an affair with. okay ?
What-- Don't-- Don't threaten me.
- I'm not threatening you. - I'm not threatening you.
I just-- I think it's an area we oughta explore.
You explore it. I'm going back to work.
Oh, and I have to pick up Rudy today because no one else can do it.
I'll find someone else when I have time.
Oh. yeah. Fine. Why don't you just take over the whole bank ?
[ Door Slams ]
## [ Country-Western ]
Well...
I called Uncle Terry where he said he'd be staying.
but there was no answer.
So...
I don't know if he's still in town or not.
Rudy. you're not speaking to me ?
I'm really sorry you're so mad at me.
but I only did what I thought I had to do.
And I just hope you don't stay mad at me for the rest of your life.
Rudy. that's enough. Rudy !
- Now you gotta cut this out ! - What did I do ?
You don't know what you're talking about.
There was nothing else I could do. I don't know how...
to explain it to you any better than that.
You cannot go on this way. because you don't know anything about it.
- You don't know what you're doing. - Okay. I'm sorry.
I don't want you to be sorry ! I want you to stop it !
I'm stopping.
See. I'm stopping.
I'm stopping.
## [ Woman Vocalizing ]
[ Phone Rings ]
- Ray's house. - Hi.
I-I didn't know if you'd left yet.
No. I'm not leaving till tomorrow.
Well. what time ?
Um. bus leaves at 9:00.
Well...
I'd-I'd really like to see you before you go.
Can-Can I give you a lift ?
Do you want to have breakfast or anything ?
I think Rudy would really like to say good-bye.
Yeah. I don't know. I mean--
Terry. you can't just leave like this.
All right. all right. Um. I'll come by tomorrow morning.
All right. Just--
We have to be out of the house by 8:00.
so I don't want to tell Rudy you're coming unless you think you can.
No. I mean. I'll be there.
- All right. - All right.
[ Line Clicks ]
[ Sighs ]
You better get your sneakers on.
Sweetie. I'm sorry. but we have to go.
Why can't I miss school one day ?
[ Vehicle Approaching ]
- Hi. - Hey. how's it going. man ?
Sorry I'm late.
So Rudy. if I write you a letter. will you write me back ?
- Yeah. - That's gonna be nice for you...
'cause I write a pretty goddamn interesting letter.
Yeah. we'll see.
Well. all right.
Say good-bye.
Bye.
Do you need some cash for the bus ?
No. I got a few bucks.
Aren't you gonna be late for work ?
Oh. yeah. It's okay.
Terry. I don't even know where you're going.
Well--
Yeah. I don't really have a concrete plan yet.
I gotta go back to Worcester and get my stuff.
- You gonna try and see that girl ? - Yeah.
I thought I'd try and show my face. let her brother have a crack at me.
- What ? I don't want... - No.
- anybody to have a crack at you. - I'm just kidding.
I just-- I just thought I'd check up on her.
And then after that. I don't know.
I've been thinking about Alaska a lot. you know ?
I've still got a lot of friends out there.
I don't really know.
Anyway. I'll write you.
You will ?
Sure. Sammy. Of course I will.
You know that.
What's gonna happen to you ?
Nothing too bad.
I gotta tell you. and I know things didn't work out too well this time.
- Terry-- - but it's really good to know...
wherever I am. and whatever stupid shit I'm doing.
that you're back at my home rooting for me.
It's all gonna be all right. Sammy.
Comparatively.
And I'll be back around this way again.
I feel like I'm never gonna see you again.
Of course you will. You never have to worry about that. Ever.
Just don't go anywhere until you know where you're going.
- Please ! - I do know where I'm going.
I do. I'm going back to Worcester.
And I'm gonna try to see that girl.
And depending on what happens there.
I'm gonna try and see if there's some work for me out west.
And if there is. I'm gonna go there this summer and make some money.
And if there isn't. I'll figure something else out.
Maybe I'll stay in the east. I don't know.
I really liked Alaska.
It was really beautiful. and it just--
It made me feel good.
And before things got so messed up. I was doing pretty well out there.
Seriously.
But I couldn't stay here. Sammy.
I don't want to live here.
But I'll keep in touch. and I will be back.
because I want to see you and I want to see Rudy.
We'll have Christmas together.
How's that. huh ? We'll have Christmas to--
Come on. Sammy.
You can trust me.
Come on. Sammy.
Look at me.
Hey. Sammy.
Remember when we were kids.
do you remember what we always used to say to each other ?
- Of course I do. - Remember when we were kids ?
# I'm just a pilgrim on this road #
# Boys #
# I'm just a pilgrim on this road, boys #
# This ain't never been my home #
# Sometimes the road is rocky along the way, boys #
# But I was never travelin'alone #
# We meet again #
# On some bright highway #
# Songs to sing and tales to tell #
# But I am just a pilgrim on this road, boys #
# Until I say fare thee well #
# I am just a pilgrim on this road, boys #
# Till I say fare thee well #
# I am just a pilgrim on this road, boys #
# I am just a pilgrim on this road ##